Thursday, April 26, 2012

Home again

It feels so good to be home. Even though it was only a three day trip, two solid days of that was traveling and we are exhausted. We were lucky enough to come home to a freshly cleaned house thanks to a secret bunch of really great friends or family. I honestly cannot thank you guys enough, it was such a treat, right down to the flowers outside and on the table. We love you guys.

We had appointments bright and early this morning starting at 7:30 (yes, thats early to me). He had his MRI that Dr. Ross had ordered and it went really well. I guessed they focused solely on the brachial plexus region which is the hub of where the tumor and hematoma is and got some really good pictures. In the afternoon we headed out to Grants Pass to the cancer center at the hospital there to get his CT scan and first appointment to start radiation tomorrow. The CT together with the MRI taken today will guide the radiation beam into the tumor.  He will receive radiation twice a week for five sessions.

The hematoma continues to bleed and actually is getting bigger. Since Dr. Ross tapped it and he felt some pressure relief for an hour or so, it has since filled up larger than before which is very uncomfortable for Cleve. It is really ugly too, I have to say. I am posting pictures at the end so if you don't want to see them, don't scroll down. because it is bleeding so much Cleve is actually thinking that it wasn't his pec major that popped off but rather what Dr. Ross suggested, that the capsule of the tumor cracked open and is the source of the bleeding. That too would explain the popping that Cleve said he felt. So before I post the gross pics, I will start out with a pic of our youngest son. I told my mom who was taking care of the boys that I missed my kids, Gavin happened to be home, so he sent me a message. Here it is. Again, gross pics will follow.
The above picture was taken yesterday in the mirror at the hotel. You can see the extent of the bruising and different colors along his chest wall.
This one and the next one were taken about ten minutes ago while changing his bandages.

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Ever changing

Greetings from Texas. I am sitting outside the hospital/hotel at the reflection area writing this update. I just have to tell you how beautiful it is here, sitting in the shade watching the birds drink and bathe in the fountain, just trying to take a break from it all.
As I wrote in my last update Cleve had felt a slight pop which what we think was the head of his pec major pulling off of its insertion point in the shoulder, this was last wednesday. As a result he has had a lot of swelling, pain and a hematoma under his arm as the picture in the last post showed. This also happened after he had an MRI taken that Dr. Ross, the surgeon had wanted us to bring to this appointment. So because of this fact, we have no idea what things really look like at this point in time. Our first appointment of the day was with Dr. Ross. What it comes down to, is that Cleve clinically looks different then what his PET scan nearly two months ago looked like. The hematoma is covering the tumor and Dr. Ross is not sure whether its bleeding because of the muscle or because the tumor itself is bleeding. What the MRI did show is that the tumor is completely wrapped around the brachial plexus which is the entire branch of nerves that serves the right arm. It is because of this that he also doesn't know whether  he is bleeding due to the tumor invading or severing some of the blood supply in the area. So today during our appointment Dr. Ross stuck a needle into the hematoma and drained it, we got over 300cc's of fluid form there. Dr. Ross says that because of the size of the tumor and its location, surrounding the brachial plexus, he does not want to do surgery because it is too dangerous. He also does not want to de-bulk or partially remove the tumor for fear of bleeding and not being able to control or stop it. So, long story short, we have canceled surgery for tomorrow. During this visit Dr. Ross was very honest with us in telling us that he has rarely if ever seen such a large tumor grow in a place he had done a complete resection of previously. He said that obviously the zelboraf is net effective in this area, although it is effective every other place, and that there is more than likely another mutation in the tumor and we just need to find the right medicine for it.

Directly after that appointment we were brought to see Dr. Hwu our medical oncologist here in Houston. She was actually surprised to see what a mess Cleve was too. After much discussion as to which direction to proceed in, she decided to send us home, have another MRI taken, simply so we can see what the heck is going on under there, (Dr. Ross wanted this as well), begin a steroid to reduce the swelling and begin radiation immediately. We are going the radiation route because it has worked relatively well in the sacrum (which is still nice and quiet) and in the brain in the form of the cyber knife. So we know that the tumors in Cleve's body respond well to radiation. What we are hoping to see is a reduction in size of the tumor and although the radiation causes swelling, the steroid will help on both accounts to keep the inflammation down. Once this has happened we will then be able to see if the tumor has reduced in size enough to remove it or, most likely begin the biochemo therapy I have been talking so much about. To remind you what the bio chemo is, it is a mix of about five different medications that work in conjunction to break down the cancer and help kick in his immune system.

So, unfortunately this is not as quick of a fix as we were hoping for since cleve is still in pain and the tumor still impinges his arms range of motion, but it is a path that is the best choice because it is the least dangerous to him at this time. When Dr. Ross drained Cleve's hematoma he did feel some pressure relief and was able to put his arm a little closer to his side, but by the time we got up to our room and I changed his dressings, it was filled up again and oozing blood, darn it. So as it stands now, we will come back home late tomorrow night and try to get him into radiation as soon as possible. A very, very special thank you to Yaser Metwally who has travelled everywhere with us and has been such a great source of support and positivity. It always helps to have a level head to break down,review and discuss all that has been said during these appointments. And an extra special thank you to all who have prayed, sent us good thoughts, and texts to me, Cleve and Yaser today. Your love and support truly means the world to us and we cannot thank you enough, I sincerely mean it, thank you.

 If you all have any questions regarding anything, please don't hesitate to comment or if you want it private, feel free to email me at katiekendall01@yahoo.com.  I know you all care about him and I honestly have no problem discussing it with you, it has become daily life for us for the last year.

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Getting ready to go

This last week and a half to two weeks have been so tough on Cleve. It would have been ideal to have gone to Houston last week but unfortunately it didn't work out that way. Cleve has progressively gotten worse and was even unable to work last week. He has spent his days sleeping, barely able to choke some food down, and nauseated. Around Wednesday last week what appears to be Cleve's pectorals major came off of its insertion point and has been very painful for him. He has been managing the pain with medication which he hates to do. So, we are just getting our bags packed and ready to leave to get this thing taken care of.
The front, purple portion is his muscle causing blood pooling and stretching his skin where the previous surgery scar is. Behind it where the rest of the incision is, is tumor, hard and growing exponentially. Hopefully this will all be taken care of on Wednesday.

Saturday, April 14, 2012

So you can see

I just wanted to share two pictures with you that I took today to show you just how big the tumor really is. This is as far down Cleve's arm will go. The tumor is underneath making it impossible for him to put his arm down against his side. It is becoming pretty painful for him. The other picture shows how swollen his right hand is becoming. Hopefully these things will be resolved after surgery.

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Surgery #2

Cleve spoke with Dr. Hwu last week and it was decided between her and Dr. Ross, the rock star surgeon, that Cleve would undergo surgery first before anything. Dr. Ross looked at the scans and wants to attempt to remove all of the tumor and would like to give him some time to heal before starting chemo. Judging by  the way Cleve feels at the moment, it is going to be one tough surgery. Cleve feels like the tumor just continues to grow and is very uncomfortable for him.  It seems to be so large that Cleve cannot comfortably hang his arm at his side and has trouble finding a comfortable position to sleep in. Relief cannot come soon enough. Surgery is scheduled for Wednesday, April 25th, so we will head down a few days prior for preliminary appointments and stay a few days after, just in case.  I will have more posts when we get down to Houston in about a week and a half. Until then...